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Season 1 · Episode 07  —  Pablo Huusmann · Software & data engineer

Change Is for the Brave

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An aeronautical engineer reinvents himself in tech, in a second country. On feeling legally and mentally stuck on a visa — “fingiendo demencia,” pretending everything’s fine — and the depression underneath it.

A coding bootcamp, a brutal 12-month job hunt, the impostor syndrome of starting over at 30-something, and the people and mantras that carried him through. We are what we do to change who we are.

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In this conversation

  • A house full of numbers, and choosing aeronautical engineering on curiosity alone.
  • Argentina to Aotearoa — and the word “infrastructure.”
  • “Fingiendo demencia” — legally and mentally stuck, pretending everything’s fine.
  • The epiphany at the lights, and missing home.
  • Willpower, luck and support — the three things that moved him.
  • The “flat white effect,” and “change is for the brave.”

Moments worth holding onto

“Fingiendo demencia — pretending everything’s okay when it isn’t. That’s how I was living.”— Pablo Huusmann
“We are what we do to change who we are.”— Eduardo Galeano
“Change is for the brave. You’re brave — just keep going.”— Pablo Huusmann